YUMMMM!!!

there is so much goodness. i am just overwhelmed right now by the lover God who just pours out every good thing with abundance on his children. today began in a really rough manner, but it's ending in giddiness. i have found the covering for my sporadic emotions. it is here, and there, and everywhere. it is God. ive been trying to process all of the emotions and pain and the things that have been causing them lately, and just realizing that some of what i am feeling is not valid. well, by the world's standards it is. but by God's standards, it is out of alignment with his perfect truth. when i get into a funk, sometimes i just want to wallow. but wallowing isn't God's way. he wants us to come to him each and every time our hearts get scraped and bruised. he loves us PERFECTLY and wants to teach us how to accept that love. today, as i was distressed and avoiding the truest solution, i realized i needed to prepare for a bible study more thoroughly than i already had. so i hit the passage, read some study guides, and felt my worries melt away as awe struck me yet again.

1 John chapter 5 is so lovely. i mean, it really is beautiful. it goes into some really fundamental Gospel truths and does it in an "aha!" way. Bible study went really well and i know that the Holy Spirit led us all.

(Change in direction in the blog) i so want to just feed the poor and talk with them and heal every broken thing. i want to show the beauty of God in an ugly, ugly world. i want to love people.

hip hop makes my heart so happy. where are the Godly hip hop artists?? c'mon guys. rise up. im sick of having to avoid the greatest beats because of the worst lyrics. (although i am currently indulging in a little fabolous... not so bad, but it doesn't hold a torch to worship music.) God has really been sensitizing me to bad lyrics and spirits behind bad media these days. i can't watch or listen to a fraction of what i used to find entertaining. i praise him for this... some things are never supposed to be acceptable.

im starting to realize the truth in that: what you put in, you get out. what you input, you eventually become. if you feed on lies, then they will eventually become your reality. sometimes you aren't even aware of it until Jesus hits you with truth and rocks everything you thought you knew. its a beautiful thing.

ps: read this:
http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=117717479108&id=799248727&ref=mf
it is so better than anything im going to write tonight.

"Do not try and bend the spoon, that's impossible. Instead, only try to realize the truth: there is no spoon." ~The Matrix

1 John 5:3-4

For this is the love of God: that we keep His commandments. And his commands are not burdensome, for whatever is born of God overcomes the world. For this is the victory that has overcome the world -- our faith.